Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 15 October 2006. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record.

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Joe Kinney

All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and offer a bow.

(Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage)

Please sit.

Good morning.

Today's topic is "Entitlement."

This world is crazy. Let's go to the story telling phase.

Let's go back to the beginning of how we build our understanding as to what is right and what is wrong.

What are we inheriting? That is the question; right?

In democracy and free society we talk about entitlement and that is about basic freedom and human rights. It's a fundamental thing that makes you who you are in relation to God.

It's the case that there are many people that see otherwise. It's basically where we stem from. That's where we start. That is the conflict. If there is any conflict in a fundamental sense, that's where it comes from; entitlement issues. Why?

Because children of God have a certain promise based on religious doctrine and some traditions that you have something that is inherent in you because God exists. That's it.

When you take God out of the picture the entitlement issue disappears. It's every man for him self. If you don't have parents you don't inherit anything; you don't even exist to begin with. That's the fundamental stuff.

When you're dealing with people who don't believe in God that's why anything is open to every kind of crazy stuff that comes down the pike based on conflict or whatever situation that exists based on voluntary issues ultimately things get crazier because it doesn't have any root.

There is no connection. It is very difficult when you have to prove yourself on a momentary basis, how great you are, why you're better that the next person if you don't have some kind of connection that allows you to speak representing good.

It doesn't work. The only reason that there is good accepted in the world is that we believe in God. I know you never saw God. You don't call Him on a red phone or something. I know that doesn't exist. The only reason that we try to take the moral higher ground is because we believe that we have some kind of relationship with God. Whether we understand it clearly, whether it is real to us, to what degree that is true in every individual case, because there will be many variations of it.

That becomes the focal point ultimately no matter how you address it that will pretty much determine the outcome. When it comes to dealing with what we have to face in reality there are people that don't believe in God. Another unfortunate fact is that beyond that reality it doesn't end there. There are many groups of people who say that "My God is better that your God."

I'm not talking about polytheism here; I'm talking about one single God, but my belief is better than your belief, my faith is better than yours.

It all comes from the concept of entitlement. I deserve something because of a religious teaching. God promised. God exists. God created everything. God gave me the opportunity to be something. Based on that people try to translate whatever, however they want to translate entitlement issues. That's it.

Let's go back to the Christian stories. We kind of get along OK; it doesn't matter how crazy the stuff we do is, still we seem to get along because of the Christian concept. You have to promise something. What is the entitlement? If you go to the mythological story of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden, the fall occurred because the entity who was delegated to rear the primary ancestors of the human race, Adam and Eve had a falling out with that particular entity based on entitlement issues.

On a hierarchy level, jealously normally comes from the bottom up; it doesn't come from up to down. Up to down you will have contempt. "That is contemptuous; I am disgusted with that person's actions." It won't be out of jealously or envy.

Jealously and envy are due to things that you see and feel, tactile things, things you need to feel and you need to have. This application will trigger jealously. If something is just out there in theory, how can you be jealous of something that you can't measure? Jealously and envy exist because it's measurable.

You want something. You want to take something. "Oh he has more power." That's measurable stuff. Base on that kind of thought provoking emotional thing you act upon it and try to claim it for yourself. This causes all sorts of problems.

When you talk about entitlement then what is the essence of entitlement? What are you really trying to.. As the human race if we believe in God and God is the Almighty, the Creator, we have to accept the will of God.

What are we ultimately inheriting? Do you think it is something that will trigger jealously and envy? I don't think so. It has to be something better, Why? Because you have to ask the question: What do you say when somebody says "I'm perfect?" What does that mean?

Perfect in what? Am I perfect in suffering like God? Am I perfect in forgiveness like God? Am I perfect in sacrificing? What kind of perfection are you talking about? That has to be clear. And why do you want to be in that position? Why do you want to emulate God? Why do you want to assume God? What is your intent? Do you really know what God's perfection is?

Or is your perfection or your desire just a product of just human history in the general sense? It doesn't have religious or secular. It's just filled with crap all over the place. Why do you want to assume that position? Why is it important to you; and if you are a representation of God then what can you do with that stuff. What is the thing that makes a difference ultimately and not just in the present, but in the future?

You can't judge somebody until they're dead right? So I'll leave it at that.

You will be judged, by your children, and by God. You can't just think about yourself, my children, my posterity, my people; there is no such a thing!

We are obviously going through religious strife in the most appalling way possible dealing with racial differences and all sorts of crap.

That's why you have to talk in general when you try to understand God because no matter how we try to understand in detail it will take time. It's not going to happen like that. Why? Think about your self. Know your limits. You don't live that long. History did not start from you.

There are many things you can be addicted to. I've seen all sorts of addictions, but the most devastating stuff is power and money. That will make you think all sorts of stupid things. If you're high on drugs you do crazy things and its not you making the decision; it's the drug making you do things that you will regret. Ultimately you are responsible for it whether you like it or not.

It has to be that way if everybody is going to achieve perfection in the eyes of God, "I didn't do anything wrong" To whose eyes? To what standard?

The world will change. No matter how crazy it is, it will change. In the past it was crazier. We know a lot. That's why we struggle in our discretionary measures. We do have a greater understanding of how history works, of how human beings work in a basic sense, physical, emotional, psychological. So basically its mind and body -- body and mind.

People 2000 years ago, 4000, 5000, they were trying to have a relationship with God. We're still going through that phase and we still struggle till this day to have a spiritual relationship with God, a God that we all see, that we all talk to every day.

Obviously something has evolved in betterment, we understand that, but still we struggle. Why? Because It's Real! Because we can't control it to the level of our understanding what the spirituality is just on the individual level. Remember that reality is various. It is not uniform. It is different in all sorts of crazy ways. But that's what it's about, nothing else.

When you talk about your entitlement, what if you're a prince? What kind of entitlement do you allow yourself that this is legitimate this is justifiable, and what gives you the right to do that? Because I'm a prince? What if you're not? What if you're the lower rung of the ladder?

Does individual responsibility differ from the people at the bottom to the people at the top? Even society doesn't allow that, secular, democratic society. Do you really think God's ideal society will allow that? Just because it (our church) is based voluntary participation that doesn't mean that it (this standard of responsibility) doesn't exist.

It might not be coerced and enforced by punitive measures, at every turn that you take, every little step that you take, but it exists. There is nothing different in the end because it can't be.

Who cares? Why do you want to be that important? You have no idea how miserable that is based on how Father prescribed it, based on His pathways. It is miserable. It is not fun. It is not glorious. It is not easy. It will be miserable and you're willing to do that.

That's something that I still have problems with. I'll tell it to you like it is. A lot of people think that they're more effective, more able, smarter, but they all want something, the thing that I have been burdened with.

Take it! I could care less, because that was the source of my misery all my life. Take it!

I wish I could be like the other guy and just kick you out and I'm better than you, live like that. I take care of myself and do good in my own way and let God sort it out.

But I still care, No matter how selfish you want to be because of climate or whatever; you care because of your blood, of your lineage.

Sometimes I get a call "I'm your brother, I'm your sister, help me!" I need help too. (Laughter) What can you say? Can you turn them down? That's part of your family.

When you've got nothing to look up to, when you're hopeless because you're sitting in a hole somewhere and you feel that pressure the enormous shame and uselessness, and hopelessness. It bothers you. It eats you up. What are you going to do? Kill everybody?

In some ways when you talk about this kind of human stuff the most fundamentally important stuff is that entitlement stuff that created all this other stuff.

When you open up to spirit world it's a two-edged sword too.

I do preach a lot about dying. Life is short. Do the best you can. Give the best you got. In this short span of life you don't want to put your nasty stuff first. Try to build something that will be lasting like the spirit that is given to you, that is entitled to you at birth.

You have to acquire and earn that stuff and make it matter because in the end you will be judged. How do you think you will be judged? You will be judged by the standard of what the spirit is. What is that? You are going to answer that on your own. OK

Am I helping you? If I'm helping you with something so be it.

I'm going to talk about God and I'm going to talk about my self.

If I'm making a difference, that's all I can do for you. That's all that matters.

Stick to your role. Stick to your purpose.

I started this for a reason and its personal and I admit it and you know it.

Take it or leave it.

It doesn't matter to me what you do in the end. I will not be your judge.

The fact of the matter is I don't even know many of you; it just happens that I'm in the position where I can make myself useful if I choose to be.

If I did that it hurts and you get disappointed to. I don't want to be hurt again.

But that does not mean something stops.

You know its right and ultimately the practical defensive approach that I have at this point, I know that can change.

I want to do the stuff that we need to fight and win. At the same time I'm disgusted that I have to be defensive about my self in my own world. It's just for now. I know it will change.

You can't be that selfish forever. You can't be that self righteous.

Try to control your angers, because anger in certain cases lead to jealously and envy. It can lead to self righteousness and superiority stuff.

Hey, just be grateful that you wake up in the morning and say "What am I going to do today?"

Count your days and be grateful that you can.

There are all kind of crazy people out there.

I have another audition (for a production on http://definingmoment.tv/)

We can deal with Christian stuff and with other stuff too.

You just invite all sorts of people and just let them talk about themselves, all different Christian denominations.

We have access to their heads thanks to modern technology. The more we understand the better.

That's the basic essence of communications. We're just going to do it because we have a purpose as a church and something has to be done in fundamental ways. That is essential for our success and the future.

The more we understand, the more we have the better. Not guessing, we know exactly what you are. The difficulty is that we are guessing (about people's views) half the time, more than half, 95%. We can be clear in dealing with humanity because we are clearer when we practice that stuff.

Practice what we learn (from these interviews) and that's good schooling isn't it? It's not just because you have a Harvard degree you might have a lot of learning, but learning doesn't stop there.

I don't think you can change the world with physical things or intellectual things. The world will be changed when we understand God. Spirit, mind and body all that has to be proper, not the other way around. Any other mixture variation or alternative is crap. Either you do that stuff or get out, because you're going to loose in the end.

No matter how secular you are, the world will teach you. You've got to know your limit. No matter how gangsterous you think you are, other men are tougher and stronger and bigger than you.

There is no doubt that America could nuke North Korea and pulverize it theoretically, but they can't do it because of radiation fallout etc. contaminate Russia China. Let them see who can piss harder into the wind. Let them do that stuff.

Let's get our act together and make a difference. In our lives as an individual that is something of a good legacy. If there is any value in any thing, it has to happen with a purpose intent and action. OK?

That's how we will be judged in the end. So please the more you do that and make a difference not just to your self but to others, the whole hell, the human race all too somehow.

Anyway how are you going to inherit something become a king and control everything? What does that mean? That is the curse. That's why God suffers. Do you understand me?

Don't like that stuff to much. It don't work like that.

Take care.