A Typical Day in Moscow
Monday, September 16, 1996 -- Hi, you're American, don't
you know!? I always write the diary as a matter of mere
facts, but I hope it is not just that. Of course, the facts
themselves are precious, and are preserved as history, but
even as photos, you might almost just as well throw them
out. Far more precious are the memories of heart, as you
will know (in eternal spiritual world). We have to make
those.
So, Fujiko-san is in Vilnius, but came back on the train
this morning. I waited for her. That was a struggle for me,
because I wanted with all my heart to go in to the office to
participate in the morning meeting centered on Chris Le Bas.
That is valuable to me. My mission gives me meaning and
value, among other things.
I ventured to tentatively ask Mikiko Oda or Kunio Iwaoji
to watch Mariya-chan until Mama came, but that was out of
the question. Why? Don't I love Mariya-chan? Yes, of
course I do. I love to come home to her, to see her off, to
hold her, to sleep with her. But I am a man, and I have to be
doing my mission, otherwise I am out of place. Men have
almost always been like that.
So when Fujiko-san came, actually, I was at that moment
talking to Mr. Iwaoji, National Messiah to Syria. He "held
me" so I couldn't even acknowledge Fujiko-san's coming.
That is unlike me. He was in a sense challenging me or
testing me to "be like a man" or be "mature". Myself, I
would run to the door and greet Fujiko-san and welcome
her back, and stick by her, like her child. She would usually
ignore me. So, for me, this was a strange situation.
It was a dark, gray, rainy, cold day. I went to pick up
Mariya-chan. A sister from IOWC over the phone gave me
the directions, but it was the wrong Metro station. I started
walking down Ulitsa Parkovaya, but in the wrong direction.
So, feeling a little frustrated, I backtracked. It was at least a
kilometer walk. But, what's the fuss? I was going to meet
my most precious daughter and little Messiah.
When I saw her, she was wearing a lavender parka like a
little Eskimo, looking very Oriental, and I actually didn't
recognize her at first!
I left an "o-miyage" for the sisters. I really hoped they
would be happy. I bought them a nice box of chocolates.
Together with heart, that is one of the nicest gifts. So why
should they be so indifferent? Especially I wanted Suma
Fukumoto to cheer up, because she looked so dark, gloomy.
"Please, eat a piece of chocolate! Kayoko-san, please make
sure Suma-san gets a piece of chocolate." But Suma-san
refused to be loved or to be cheerful. Of course, she may be
a spiritually very Abel person, only focused on
witnessing.... Witnessing for what? Surely not to be happy
in this world and the next....?
At dinner, Fujiko-san still hadn't come home, because
she was at the Leaders Meeting. But Mr. Iwaoji was very
angry at someone for detaining a woman at night in this
Moscow for some protracted meeting, and he scolded,
saying, "I'm going to tell Mrs. Kang about this. That leader
is responsible for keeping her like that!" But I was
nonchalant. I said, "For me, as the husband, to protest
against that would be Cain-like. Somebody else has to say it.
If you can say so, it is okay, but I can't."
At 10:45 pm I left the house for the Metro station. I
waited... and waited... and waited... Each train was 7
minutes apart. The cleaning ladies came out. I was thinking,
"Did I miss her? Surely she wouldn't just go home and,
seeing me not there, just relax and enjoy herself...? If she
did indeed do that, what should I do? Should I get angry and
say, 'You deceived me. I'm not going to meet you at the
Metro again!' No, that wouldn't do. It would be better to just
smile, and, to soothe my frustration, just eat a peanut butter
jelly sandwich or two. So I continued to wonder for an hour
and a half what happened, what good excuse she could
have. She better apologize..."
Fujiko-san showed up at 11:45 with a sheepish face.
Actually she had been arrested. Now, I knew a girl
shouldn't go out late on the street like that. Whether it is
robbers or the militia, what is the difference? They are both
crooks. In fact, the police saw Akira-san, who was with
Fujiko-san walking home, carrying a big bag, and they
stopped them to question them. Fujiko-san didn't have her
passport on her, which in Moscow is a deadly offense.
They dragged her in to the militia cell, with three policemen.
Fujiko-san had a backpack with 3 million rubles in it (about
800 dollars) from the members' toil in fundraising. Surely
the police would have taken that money -- they are like
robbers, too -- so, wisely, Fujiko-san swiftly gave the bag
away to Akira-san, who waited outside the station. They
questioned Fujiko-san for 45 minutes, and finally let her go
with just paying 75,000 rubles fine. But if they had seen that
money... Also, in the police office were picture of naked
ladies. They were very mean, Cain-type policemen. So, a
girl should not be out on the street late at night in Moscow,
and we had been worried about that, and it was right.
Fujiko-san came home, and it was so good to be back
together and home safe again. The lost time counted for
nothing. We were together again, and home.
Mariya-chan often waits up till all hours for her Mama to
come home. She is quite a baby, and very spiritual too! She
seems to know in advance if I am going to be gone, or when
Mama is coming home, and what I need, and she gives that
to me, as best she can, as a tender little 11 and a half
months. What will this prodigy be like when she is 21 years
old?
I never go to bed without eating, and now was no
exception. I wanted to eat a late snack with Fujiko-san, but
Fujiko-san wanted to pray first, and then... she went to bed,
because she said she had felt nervous, and couldn't eat now.
Me? For any reason, the solution is to have something to
eat! Happy or sad!
For all my pains (ours), I had a nice dream. It truly made
the day.
We had made a CD disk with songs we had put together.
It was golden, with little shiny rings or rainbows, you
know, the miraculous sheen of CD discs... Well, the
contents of this CD disk were just as precious as the
external appearance. So, I was going all around selling this
CD disk, for fundraising. At first, I went to all the offices
and homes, and the people were rather indifferent. But,
toward the very end, it became a very sought-after item.
People were crazy about it. They thought it was the best
thing in the world. The secretaries would even give me 20
dollars, because I had only one disk left, and said keep the
disk. All the blessing was coming at the end. Finally I came
to a place, went upstairs, and there was a room. A bunch of
nifty little children were there, and they gathered around. I
had something to share with them. And then, Grandma and
Granddad appeared from a door behind. I looked into their
eyes. Granddad was shining very brightly, like white, and
Grandma looked very good too, and they were together. A
voice whispered in my ear, "You know, he is not actually
with us any more (on earth)." But I didn't care. They were
together, and I was with them. I felt so happy.
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